Unexplained
I’d like to think I am genuinely a nice person. I am happy most of the time. I don’t get angry that easily or mean. I can be sarcastic but it is all a game. When I do get angry it is no pretty. I think mainly because I have suppressed my anger when I was young.
I feel like at this age I have found my voice among other adults. I finally have my own point of view but it seems since I am not the 10 year old girl it is not going that well with some people.
I am a bird and I want to fly but I can’t..not yet.
I’ve met people that I truly cared for and have hurt me. Not just relationship wise.
It is impressive that the people I have cared for the most and love, have and keep hurting me the most. I want to be that happy person that everyone sees. I want her to be always that way but it is so hard.
I should be thankful for my job, house, friends and family. But in between them are the people who hold me back from being my happiest.
Maybe I am the problem?? I know I am not perfect. that’s for sure but why. I am who I am and I have changed to someone who is me but people can’t accept that.
I often feel alone. Not many people know what I go through..just one person. But he also hurt me. The other one who knew also ended up hurting me early on and probably because of my issues.
I want to be happy. That’s all . I want to succeed. I want to lead. I want to socialize. I want to help the world. I want to change this world somehow but i also have to beat my pain. I know I will but I need time.
I want people to remember me.
They sure will.
