I’d like to think I am genuinely a nice person. I am happy most of the time. I don’t get angry that easily or mean. I can be sarcastic but it is all a game. When I do get angry it is no pretty. I think mainly because I have suppressed my anger when I was young.
I feel like at this age I have found my voice among other adults. I finally have my own point of view but it seems since I am not the 10 year old girl it is not going that well with some people.
I am a bird and I want to fly but I can’t..not yet.
I’ve met people that I truly cared for and have hurt me. Not just relationship wise.
It is impressive that the people I have cared for the most and love, have and keep hurting me the most. I want to be that happy person that everyone sees. I want her to be always that way but it is so hard.
I should be thankful for my job, house, friends and family. But in between them are the people who hold me back from being my happiest.
Maybe I am the problem?? I know I am not perfect. that’s for sure but why. I am who I am and I have changed to someone who is me but people can’t accept that.
I often feel alone. Not many people know what I go through..just one person. But he also hurt me. The other one who knew also ended up hurting me early on and probably because of my issues.
I want to be happy. That’s all . I want to succeed. I want to lead. I want to socialize. I want to help the world. I want to change this world somehow but i also have to beat my pain. I know I will but I need time.
I want people to remember me.
They sure will.
and I am walking away again………..
when will it stop?!?!!
I need to meet new people. damnit.
I am happy being single…really..
I don’t get boys sometimes.
The one guy that I actually liked a lot turned out to be different from what I thought he was. He was my prince charming ( when I was 15…) He was my first love but as years went and as we broke up. I started to get out of my bubble and saw the real him, thanks to himself. oh well whateves
The other one..he is really nice but I just can’t see me dating him..I can’t..sometimes I wish I did but I can’t…he is just a really nice friend
The rest I just don’t like them that way.. I know they like me but all we can ever be is friends…
I like being alone…I can flirt and I can do whatever I want..though sometimes I do wonder where is the next guy I’m supposed to date..not marry just date..
idk….where are you?!? but you can take your time too…haha
no one can tie me down so far…
IT IS WHAT IT IS
I give up. But know this you were truly the meaning of love to me. Well until someone comes by…see you later, maybe.
I really hope you find happiness with whoever and wherever and make them happy.
Adioss
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EntiR5V3GJs
…I am either super happy or I turn on my thinking stage and get so confused..I don’t know why I keep thinking of him..he does not even want me. I should stop, told myself it was not going to go anywhere and yet here I am. If only I had the strength to tell him everything…I think I know what I would like but nothing….for old sake..The Notebook..
If you are a bird, then I’m a bird
Tan simplemente no entiendo. No me entiendo y no lo entiendo. Creo que se lo que quiero pero no se si estoy segura… no se como sentirme de verdad estoy perdida en un desierto con aguas imaginarias que me dan esperanza pero la realidad es que no hay agua pero quiza encuentre esa agua algun dia? Quiza demo tomar el primer paso y buscar o tratar de encontrar si hay agua o no porque si no hay tendria que tomar otro rumbo…. Pero si hay pues que alegria. Al fin del cabo honestidad es lo mejor que debe pasar en nuestra vida pero ruego que todo pase bien para mi y mi super amiga. Gracias por todo a los dos.
Solamente soy un pajarito tratando de buscar mi rumbo pero no lo encuentro…
I just DON’T understand….
